well she pleaded to be different. they have known each other for few years. and it’s only few months back that they found there’s some sparks being lit surround them after a sunrise watching. they clicked instantly, faster than your average two-minute-instant-noodle, she kids you not. in fact, she was giggling when they first smooched. who have thought that they would be together huh? no effing ONE SATU YI YAT. not even the lead actress herself.

You and I were just made

to love each other now, forever and a day

-You and I by Scorpions-

to tell the truth, it was not your average relationship, or affair, because there’s more lust than lurve lied within them. they weren’t there for each other most of the time because the states of Seremban, Selangor and Perak part them. she’s one sensual person, she needs real hugs and kisses to feel him and feel safe instead of those virtual xoxo and ‘miss you’. they are not only distanced physically, they are incompatible mentally as well. the longer you are with one person, the more true colours you will see, the better you will know him. or so she thought. she knew that he’s not the one for her, don’t ask how, she just feel that. and she’s right. a gemini is never the perfect boyfriend.

I love you

Is all that you can’t say

Years gone by and still

Words don’t come easily

Like I love you I love you

-Baby Can I Hold You by Tracy Chapman-

and to tell another truth, the affair ended few days back. both of them have failed to make it happen. it had lasted merely three months, slightly longer than somebuddy (including herself) thought they could have survived. they had experienced sweet and sour pork, spicy and bitter moments together in that three months. remember that lil’ hill where they first watched sunrise, that tree where they first smooched underneath, that hut overlooking a serene polluted lake where they spent many mornings together. their memories are scattered all over the place. that stairs, that road, that waterfront, that seats, that eatery, that lift, that couch, that bathroom, and that room…

sometimes when she’s lonesome (reads: bum here and there doing absolutely nothing at all), her mind wanders. why just can’t she get a guy whom she lurves and he reciprocals eh? that will make things so muchy easier… however, life ain’t always a bed of roses, things liddis make people grows innit? no, don’t get her wrong, she’s not lamenting why this happened. she’s glad that it happened. she’s glad that he is was part of her undergraduate life.

thanks for walking into my life

and

thanks for making me realize that You and I is impossible.

she: bee, what are we now?

he : (silence)…donno…(silence)

she thinks that things happen too fast between them. they cuddled when they first met. then smooched on the second day. and they are walking hand in hand on the fifth day. yala, the order wasn’t that right, she knows. she’s glad that things are cooling down these few days, he has thought da same too perhaps, too fast too furious wtf.

what makes the gal ponder, is, why he blurted ‘donno’…

is he thinking that she’s easy? or maybe he just wanna bed her. this is sad case. she shouldn’t pop that question in the 1st place!

is he thinking that she’s just not the one for him? emmm…maybe. she has never thought they will one day be together when they first met. seriously.

maybe he needs more time to sort out his thought? okie, she has given him ample space and time. and hopefully he has already gaodim-ed his emotion or whatever when he meets her soon.

maybe this is actually not a big deal at all, u know the official and unofficial thing. why woman always wanna suffocate guy with this kinda questions one you ask…

actually she doesn’t really mind at all, really. he has already treated her like a girlfriend. he held her tight when they bumped into friend. she has never thought things will happen between them. never ever. one fine morning, cupid played a prank on them out of boredom. and some chemistry did mange to spark in the air. and maybe one day the stupid cupid will soon lose interest in them and sparks will die out just liddat. and why is she still dwelling on this silly question now? as long as he cares for you, treats you like his baby, be by your side when you need him dearly, saves you by performing cpr on your cherry lips when you can hardly breath, smoothes your pain with his magical words, these are already enough, right? right. or maybe he has already thought of putting a full stop to this errr…what word is best describe them? affair? whatever…she has prepared for it, to tell the truth. you find them as confusing? even confusion thought the same too wtf!

too muchy of pondering today. she needs some beauty sleep now. tomorrow is a girly day out with her loupo oh yay! oh just in case you are wondering why is she being so bold in virtual world, cos she thinks he doesn’t read bloggie, so she thinks she can blog however whatever she wants. she thinks la. oh and one more thing, she’s getting bored of the theme again, will change soon. and purleeese don’t say something like good luck and break a leg! love needs effortsss and sacrificesss and caresss and uh lurvesss, not luck. goodnite world.

i will bite u.

im a red ant today. (no pun intended!)

via ffn!!! 

can u feel da excitement im feeling now?

im a lousy sister cos i only knew last few days that bro broke up with her gf weeks ago. and i learned that from third party some more

im a lousy sister cos i always ask some share of his salary

im a lousy friend cos i don’t take da initiative to keep in touch with my buddies

im a lousy roomie cos i don’t even know that roomie has an english name, catherine

im a lousy dog-owner cos i call my pet Giant Ass

im a lousy pedestrian cos i don’t look to right and left before crossing da road.

im a lousy student cos i talk alot in class while lecturer are lecturing in front

im a lousy ant cos i ain’t that hardworking instead i procrastinate all da time

im a lousy ant cos i don’t bite

say something nice about me so that i feel less inferior can?

if i chooce da latter?

i feel so bad

=-O (N) :-/ (W) ;-(

don’t go back can?

i wasn’t as ecstatic as before.

indeed

i shrugged it off just liddat

it’s a G.A.M.E.O.V.E.R baby. for real.